The Catalyst (a paranormal romance: Preternaturals Book 3) Page 4

  Did it take all night to go to the hardware store?

  She wouldn’t admit she was worried for him. Anger was easier. Though both emotions were inappropriate. She didn’t know him. He was good-looking and was sane enough part of the time, but just because she’d been locked away in her house in the woods separated from people didn’t mean she needed to start yearning for the first hot guy to break through her kitchen window.

  Since Z hadn’t returned with a way to fix the cage, at midnight, Fiona had dutifully locked the pup up. She felt guilty about it, but it was for his own safety. Since the latch on the door was broken, she’d shoved the couch against the cage. The pup was pretty strong for his size. Therians born in their fur often were.

  She’d been tempted to sleep in the bedroom. If Z wasn’t going to make use of the bed, someone should. But the realization that the pup might still be able to get out, with just the couch as a barrier to the outside, had her adding her own weight.

  Even if he could move both the couch and her, at least she’d wake up during the attempt. Fiona glanced at her watch. Seven in the morning. The sun must already be up, and here she was still stranded alone with the pup. Z didn’t even have a TV so she could keep up with her soaps.

  At least the wolf was asleep. After about twenty minutes of whining and banging against the door with his small body, he’d given up and curled up in the far back corner.

  Fiona jumped when Z entered the cave. The ranting and nagging she’d had planned like some surly fishwife died in her throat as he dropped the bag from the hardware store on the table. He looked wiped.

  “Where were you?” She tried to make it sound as non-accusatory as possible.

  He gave her an irritated look. “I had to stay out. I went to the coffee shop last night on my way to the hardware store and ran into a vampire, one of the ones who wants the pup. He must have been waiting for me to show up in town. I couldn’t risk coming back here again until morning. I have wards on the cave, but there’s no reason to let them know where we are if we don’t have to. It’s safer if our location stays secret.”

  Fiona turned all that over in her head, trying to determine if it was the truth. “Did he say what he wanted with the wolf?”

  Z shook his head and peeled the T-shirt off, draping it over the chair. She wished he’d stop doing that. Did he have to show her all that sleek muscle at every opportunity? Was he teasing her? Tempting her? He kicked his shoes off and emptied his pockets.

  “What’s that?” A cream-colored rectangle of paper with a phone number and nothing else on it glared out from the pile of loose change on the table.

  Z crumpled the card and tossed it in the fire. “It’s nothing.”

  Sure it was nothing. It was some girl he’d been out with all night.

  “You don’t have to lie to me about where you go. Why should I care who you sleep with?” Fiona managed to get the words out without much emotion. The truth was that she was jealous of whoever he’d shared his bed with, but she had no claim on him. Aside from his one remark in her kitchen about getting down to business, he hadn’t made any passes at her. It probably was just that he’d been keyed up the day before from the adrenaline and, as he said, being a wild animal.

  Z stalked closer. She would never forget what he was—not with the sinewy, perfect way he moved. It looked like he’d practiced for hours in front of a mirror to move with that lethal, graceful precision, but she knew it was just his natural movement. If you paid attention to your surroundings, a therian—even in human form—had a tell. This was Z’s.

  His eyes raked over her, and she felt her flesh heat. Anytime he looked at her, X-rated images filled her mind. She needed to stop that.

  “You don’t care who I fuck? I don’t believe that’s true. You’re jealous. You’ve kept yourself cloistered from the rest of the world your whole adult life, and now that you’ve spent five minutes near a man, you want to keep tabs on me and keep me locked away. Don’t you? I’m sure you have a lot of time to make up for, a lot of needs that haven’t been attended to?”

  She shivered as his fingertips trailed over her cheek. His voice was low, deep, dark, rich like chocolate. Hypnotic. If she hadn’t known what he was, she might have mistaken him for a vampire or incubus from the effect he was having on her. She backed away, working hard to reclaim her feigned nonchalance at his closeness, pretending a worldliness they both knew was far from the truth.

  “I’m not stupid. You were out all night; you have a phone number on a card. Just don’t lie, okay? It’s not my business what you do.”

  “You’re right. It isn’t. And what I told you is the truth. The number belongs to the vampire.”

  Even if it wasn’t her business, she still didn’t believe him. Why would the vampire give him a phone number? Unless it had been a female vampire. Fiona had assumed a male. The idea that he might sleep with the enemy just for the hell of it repulsed her.

  She would have argued the point further, but she’d forgotten how to think in complete sentences, since he kept refusing to wear a shirt. She could smell the wildness on him and wondered if he’d been hunting. She wished she’d developed her witchcraft more. Another witch might have known if he’d had a woman, or if the essence of blood and death still clung to him from a recent hunt.

  Fiona turned away and went to the cage. “The pup needs to be let out. He’s been in there all night.”

  Electricity shot up her arm as Z grabbed her wrist and spun her around. “Oh no, you’re not getting away that easy. We were having a conversation I find interesting.”

  Fiona shook her head. “No, it was just a misunderstanding. I just … didn’t want you to feel weird or awkward living your life as you usually do. I’m not going to judge you.”

  She froze as he pressed his face against her neck, breathing in her scent.

  “With the pup around, I don’t get much action. Do you know how crazy that will drive a man?”

  She couldn’t imagine him much crazier than he’d already proven to be, but she chose not to verbalize that thought.

  “Z…”

  “Fiona…” he mocked.

  He held her cradled in his arms for several minutes, breathing in her scent, sniffing her like he might eat her. She stood stiff for a second, then tried to pull away. But he held on tighter.

  She sighed and relented to his embrace, trying not to feel awkward… or aroused. But she knew he could smell it on her. Damned therians and their super senses.

  “You don’t know how much I wish you weren’t a virgin right now.”

  “What?” She tried to pull away again, and this time his grip loosened, allowing her to put several feet between them. “What difference does that make?” Not that she’d sleep with him either way.

  She felt like a child standing there with him sizing her up the way he was. Z moved back a few paces to lean against the counter.

  “Don’t be stupid, Fiona. You’re not a quick fuck. You’re complicated.”

  “Just because I have some anxiety issues doesn’t mean—”

  “You know that’s not what I’m talking about. I can’t sleep with you and forget you. And I sure as hell can’t commit to you, so as hot as you are and as much as I just want to bury myself inside you, it can’t happen. I’m leaving town tomorrow to search for the pup’s family, so at least the temptation to do something stupid will be gone.”

  Fiona stood there a minute, her mouth hanging open, her flesh rising to an impossibly high temperature. She couldn’t decide which emotion to settle on. Several were battling it out in her brain for dominance. First there was the anger at his general attitude toward women, then there was the sudden shyness and shock over his pronouncement of her supposed hotness and what he wanted to do with her, then there was the used feeling that he could somehow create without ever penetrating her body.

  What if something happened to Z? She couldn’t care for a pup. She had no access to her money from here. And what about her job? They’d run out of food
and starve to death if she couldn’t bring herself to go outside. But had he once thought about that? Whether it was her body or her babysitting and animal understanding skills, either way he was using her.

  Tears slid down her cheeks.

  “Please don’t do that,” Z said. “I’m trying to not be an asshole here.”

  Fiona laughed bitterly. “This is you holding back? Wow. Just wow.” She turned and left the room, not wanting him to see any more tears.

  ***

  Z stared after her, wondering what the hell had just happened. After a moment, he shrugged and took the new lock from the hardware store and tried it on the cage. He tested it with his own strength. It would hold. He unlocked it and swung the door back to let the pup out to play. The wolf raced around the cave at warp speed, his tongue lolling out.

  After a couple of laps, he went back into the open cage to get a bit of water, then he looked around and started to whimper. Z followed as the wolf sniffed like a bloodhound until he got to the bathroom. He laid outside the door with his nose between his paws, occasionally rising up and scratching at the door.

  Z’s jaw clenched at hearing Fiona crying on the other side. This had been so stupid. He could have found someone else to watch the pup while he went searching for the family. This had been a dumb plan. Surely it didn’t take her particular gift to figure out how to care for the thing. There was too much attraction with completely wrong circumstances.

  Z knocked.

  “Go away.”

  “Fiona, come on. This is my home, and I need to take a shower.”

  “Then I’m never coming out,” she said petulantly from the other side.

  Z rolled his eyes. He could break it down, but fitting a door into a cave like this was no small feat. He’d be damned if he was going to mess up so many hours of labor only to have to redo it. He’d built this place with his own hands. There was no way he was going to destroy it in a rage just because a witch was getting under his skin.

  “Tell me what I did wrong. Do you think it would be right to take advantage of you?”

  “I’m not a child!”

  Z growled, almost shifting. He needed to hunt something. His nerves were already on edge. He’d come straight home when the sun had risen, and this was the thanks he got.

  A few minutes passed when she said, “I want to go home.”

  “You said you’d help me. For God’s sake, Fiona. I’ll be out of your hair tomorrow morning. You won’t have to deal with me. And when I find the pup’s family, you can go home.”

  “What if something happens to you? I’ll be trapped here. You won’t let me have my books and tools. What about access to a computer so I can get to my money? What about my job? If I don’t log in tomorrow, they might fire me. You’ve made me helpless while you run out to who knows where.”

  This was why he wasn’t good with women, why he only had one-night stands. He didn’t think things all the way through sometimes. Any woman who spent more than a single night with him would figure that out and run screaming in the other direction.

  And who was he kidding? Fiona wasn’t a bad witch. She didn’t have a mean bone in her body. She wasn’t going to hex him. So why had he acted like he had? As if she were some kind of magical terrorist. He’d known from the moment he’d met her that she wasn’t a danger to him. He could smell the sweetness on her. And that was part of the problem.

  “I’m sorry. I’ll go to your house and get your stuff. Just make me a list of what you need.”

  She opened the door and poked her head out. His heart clenched at her tear-stained face. All in all, she was taking all the shit he’d put her through pretty well.

  “You’d do that?”

  Z nodded. “I should have let you have the stuff you needed to feel protected. It was wrong and selfish for me not to.” He was just going to skim right past the chloroform and kidnapping bit.

  “Okay.”

  “Now can I have a shower and breakfast first?”

  She nodded, wiping her face with the back of her hand, a sudden embarrassment seeming to come over her. The alien notion that he should reach out and comfort her in some way popped into his mind. But he couldn’t bring himself to touch her again. Still, her arm bumped him as she passed, and he felt the physical chemistry that crackled between them. Could she not feel that?

  But she left him standing there. The pup followed behind her like a guard dog and growled back at him.

  In the shower, Z scrubbed himself raw, the self-recriminations pounding through his head. He was right not to sleep with her. She was far too innocent. And he couldn’t take care of her the way she needed. Not that he thought she was helpless. Despite her peculiar issues, she wasn’t a weakling. She’d shown surprising courage and calm in the face of her circumstances. Z thought she was much stronger than she knew. It mystified him that she couldn’t see that and leave the self-created prison her house had become.

  No, he couldn’t take care of her in the way any man would want to take care of the right woman. There was no right woman for Z. Any woman he met, he spoiled and screwed up for whoever her right man was, and all in the space of a single night. He always did have impressive talents.

  After he finished beating himself up, he indulged in a morning wank. Generally, any random image of any random woman would do. Today it was Fiona in his head. He switched between lust and guilt, but lust won out. When he finished, he scrubbed some more and went for round two of self-recriminating mental talk.

  He leaned his head against the tile. Women made him too broody. If she knew the things he thought and mentally whined about, it would kill her interest in a hot second. He wasn’t cut out for a woman, and he wasn’t cut out for kids. He should have left that pup where he found him. It would have been a hell of a lot simpler.

  When he got out of the shower, he was surprised to find Fiona in the kitchen, making eggs. He’d bought eggs and bacon at the store the previous week thinking he might fry or scramble something up one morning. The bacon was frying in a second pan.

  The pup wove in and out of her legs, but she was ignoring him. When she noticed Z’s presence, she blushed and looked away. “The list of my stuff and where it can all be found is on the table.” She pointed the spatula at the list, then went back to the eggs in front of her.

  Z put the list in his pocket and looked around the kitchen. Something was different. Very different. “You organized my kitchen?”

  “Um… I couldn’t sleep last night. I organize when I can’t sleep.”

  All the papers and junk that had been piled on the table were in neat stacks and trays—trays he’d bought for that purpose, but hadn’t gotten around to using. He opened the cabinets to find all his coffee cups lined up in perfectly straight rows from largest to smallest. Quirky. Should he say thank you or be annoyed? Being annoyed wouldn’t be appropriate given that she wasn’t here of her own free will. He should be grateful she’d organized his stuff instead of broken or burned it.

  “I made you some breakfast.”

  When he’d said he needed some breakfast first, he’d meant hunting. He needed to kill something in the worst possible way. But he couldn’t stand to make her cry again, so he sat down and ate eggs and bacon in his newly organized kitchen.

  Several minutes passed in blissful eating silence when she put down her fork. “This is a screwed up situation, but I know you need help with the pup, and I said I’d help. I think deep down, aside from the bad judgment in kidnapping me… I think you’re a good man.”

  He couldn’t help the groan that slipped out. What the hell did he need to do for this woman to see he wasn’t a hero? Her perceptions were all about her sexual peak approaching without ever having had a horse in the barn. It wasn’t reality.

  He realized he’d made the sound when she went silent again. He felt the frost come off her: a subzero gust moving across the table, headed straight for him.

  “Fine. I’m sorry you think I’m such an idiot,” she said.

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p; Z couldn’t deal with this. He knew she wasn’t doing it on purpose, but there were two ways to shut her the hell up, and killing her didn’t sound like the fun option. He scraped his chair back and moved faster probably than she could process. He jerked her up out of her chair, and before she could protest, he planted one on her.

  The kiss was slow and sensual, his lips caressing hers, devouring, tasting, exploring. His tongue slipped into her mouth even though he knew, given her phobic history, that this was new territory for her.

  After a small eternity, he released her. “Now, please… shut up. I’ll be back in an hour or so with your things.”

  She looked up at him, an odd cross between angry and dazed. But dazed won out as she sank back into her chair and picked up the fork to finish her eggs, a smile edging out her anger.

  ***

  Fiona sat for a good thirty minutes after Z had left her, the pup yapping at her heels, trying to play, wanting some scraps.

  “Oh yes, sorry puppy.” She didn’t glance down as she put her plate on the floor to let the pup eat the leftovers. She got up from her chair still dazed, a goofy grin painting her mouth. She started humming as she put the dishes and frying pans into the sudsy water to do the dishes like she was Cinderella or something.

  She was never going to tell him that had been her first kiss. Granted, being told to please shut up afterward wasn’t how it had played out in her fantasies. Still, it was… electric. Fiona touched her fingertips to her lips. If Z had known she’d never been kissed, he wouldn’t have done it.